已经象只困兽一般生活了超过一个月了，中间去上海的托福考场放了几天的风，然后又自觉自愿的回到囚笼里，小心翼翼的关上门， 随手按开空调，抱着腿坐在本本面前过我的日子。

突然发现，其实这样生活着的人并不只是我一个， 几乎所有的从前一起上窜下跳的朋友们都安安静静的找了一个自己的角落开始了围困自己的过程了，没错，终于还是到了要怀有世俗的心念，好好的做事情的时候了。一年后的三岔口，你无论如何还是要选一条走下去的，所以，实习再无聊也得去，高数题再痛苦也得做，而GT铺天盖地的资料海，我也只能选一个最省力的姿势，继续向对岸游。

喜欢上家里没人的感觉，冷气的声音都可以听到，睡裙飘啊荡啊，两条腿一会儿抱在胸前，一会儿抵在桌上，肆意妄为。

也喜欢狠狠想念却够不到的感觉，突然觉得很沮丧，然后发现繁忙可以治好它；突然觉得很孤单，听美妙的旋律却又忘记了。突然觉得，自己成了没心没肺的动物，开想起早先的一个晚上，ROSE咖啡屋里，Margaret说起的戒掉感情的事。。。我不哭也不笑，更不再试图纠缠着不放，但心里还是爱着的吧，就是这样爱着的。想问问，这是长大？还是衰老？

每天都会在中午去奶奶家蹭饭之前的片刻打开MSN窥视，其实知道不会有人跳出来说Hi，还是忍不住要用10秒的时间来确认自己的判断， 然后悻悻然的把状态调成“离开”，走出家门的时候会觉得夏日正午的温暖，是温暖，仿佛回到浓烈的人间了。

总之，我并不想这样的生活，只是第一次有了一种被现实疯狂驱使，然后有点俗气的感觉，幸而我发现这种日子的尽头不会太遥远了，而即便之后的发生可能是更不能预知的混乱仓皇的，总比这样的作一只困兽来的自由啊～～

想起Roy对我说的，真正的英雄主义是，了解生活的真实却依旧热爱生活。

 

题目：ISSUE43 - "To be an effective leader, a public official must maintain the highest ethical and moral standards."

字数：634          用时：0:45:00          日期：2006-8-30

 

The leadership nowadays has been treated as the most crucial thing in the process of creating values, protecting the basic rights, or advocating the critical opinions. All these functions of leadership play a series of roles in the life of humans concerning businesses, politics, and social activities.For better understanding of this invisible productivity, many people try to figure out the most essential standards of an effective leadership,through which one can find out the best bellwether for a promising future success.One of these standards ,which are on the hottest discussion, concerns with the social ethics and morality of this kind of person.

As is well known, the leader in a group is always stand higher than other members in order to have a more comprehensive view of the whole cause and then find the best way to reach the ultimate goal. In this sense, the knowledge of the surroundings as well as the ability to make the rational dicision for the whole group seems more crucial than the moral and ethical standards of the leader ,especially in the occasion that the stakeholders try to find our the right person to bring benefits rather than fulfill the social resposibilites. Bill Gates, at his early business stage once expressed his unwillingness to donate his money to any charity organizations,for he believed that the biggist contribution he can make to the society is to use his money at the best investment spots so that they can create even more money, along with more job oppotunities, more tax payments to the local government. According to this, the charity is abosulutely not on his list of good investments.Should we blame him as a coldhearted man? no, at least on the basis of economic analysis.The business leaders who try to maxmize their fortunes ,if it does not interfere the normal life of others and of the society as a whole, should not be blamed at best.

However,Bill changed his opinion after several years of up and down in the business circle. Nobody can actually tell who made the change of his mind, what we can tell is that he becomes a more respectable rich person than before, this time ,his  honor is not only because of his success as a business man,but also as a man with sympathy and love to the world who do not live as happy as he does .For his good deeds in establishing a fund for the international poverty releif, he and  his wife,and another anthropolagist,Bono from U2 rock band, become the persons of 2005 for the TIMES magazine.

it is true that we do not expect too much from the leadership when we only consider the aim we hope he or she can lead us to, but the world will ,of course, applauds for the one who stands on the highest social positions ,at the same time, have the highest ethical and moral standards.

admittedly, in the political ,religious or the public spiritual field, we need the perfect person such as Martin Luther King Jr. or Abraham lincoln as the leader of the saint causes as well as as the model of the good behavior, restrict disciplins,and passions and highest ethical and moral standards. Without the glamor of their moral and ethical merits, hardly could anyone followed them, let alone to struggle for the goals they are calling for. Supposing that Benjamin Franklin does not obey his 13 virtues , we would have never enjoyed the main spirits of the United states, to name just a few---- democracy, freedom,human rights, etc.

The essence of the leadership, however, should not be defined to the obeyance of any standards or rules. It is the joy of the success as well as the harmony and integrity of the group which he or she should devoted all the effort on.

    答应LY了，要在Blog上登一篇重返闵行的纪念文。回家都三天了，却一直拖着没写，因为准备下一场考试的时间实在太紧，因为始终补冲不足的睡眠，其实，都是借口而已。

    渐渐的，也开始把写字这件事降级为一种闲人的娱乐而非生活的必须了；渐渐的，也开始承认，那些奇幻般的在我的心里上演的戏剧，在真实生活中从来也没发生过。我写，你看，却都是过目就忘了；我哀伤落泪，你惋惜摇头，却都是戏外的人。没什么，习惯了，断落的情节让他们都去了也好。我的笔尖，你的嘴角。。。。。。

    回忆开始：

    走进校园的时候，迎面碰上的是菁菁堂广场上的红霞满天，光线是淡彩山水里的胭脂红，突然间着了魔般的想起去年夏天杭州的曲院风荷，那清晨阳光照得羞涩极了的那一朵，也是这相似的光色。耳朵里的声音很复杂，有虫子在唱歌，青蛙夫妇用不同的调子大声调情，有女生坐在男生的自行车后座上大笑大叫的从我身边滑过，还有风，在戏弄我的耳朵。。。突然发现，这种混响是存在于我的某个记忆的角落中的，如同乐乐唤我的名字一样，从来没有觉得有什么特别，却会在那一瞬间打开了我睡着很久的听觉。我吸一口气，对它笑笑，你还在阿～真好～

    我是从上中下院与南区宿舍之间走去西食的。六点多的食堂已经没有什么人了，打饭的阿姨用大勺敲着装饭菜的铁盒子，催促着还在这里逛悠的人，快点买，快点吃，快点走，她好快点回家吧。。。然后给老公洗衣服，看着小孩子做作业。。。。。。我很配合，点了两个素菜，没要饭，想一会儿去图书馆后面的水果店买合心的果子吃。边吃着，我忍不住抬头打量这里：想起来每天中午11：40起攒动不息的寻食情景；想起胸前挂着小牌，在献血的学生队伍里出出进进；想起袁瑞，赵宏，小渊源，大江，那些且笑且相识的单纯日子。诚实的说，走出西食侧门的时候，心里有一点点痛，象根刺，那根刺。。。。。。

    真正的晚餐是水果店里两块钱一斤的水蜜桃，柔软的，粉嘟嘟的长了一身绒毛，婴儿一样，洗干净了，外皮可以用手指捏了撕下来的！我把胳膊肘撑在图书馆四楼大厅的窗台上，一边看那群白色的鹭鸟从杉树林上起起落落，一边饕餮我的蜜桃。“饕餮”两个子哥哥用过，形容吃个没完，突然发现，其实这两个字包含的还远不止这些，内心的富足和憧憬才是它真正的涵义。此时，我与我的蜜桃，以及暮色，晚风，归鸟一起，让我萌生了紧紧抓住的心思，一时的拥有怎么足够呢，怎么够？

    图书馆出来往北区的寝室走，一路那些香樟树荫把昏黄的路灯光遮掩的愈加不清亮了，树荫后面是噪声振动实验室，汽车工程试验室和一些别的不知道做什么用的房子，机械转动摩擦的吱吱呀呀声从那些暗处传来，和虫鸣混合在一起。。。一个人也没有，只有我在走着，我想起那些还在守着那些机器的人，他们和我一样吧，又寂寞，又美好。一转弯，黑影消失，所谓自恋自艾，象温顺的小野鹿，被我留在了身后。

    我说，我是猫一样的动物，那些我生活过的地方，就认作是家，会一辈子爱它。

"Each of us has something within us which won't be denied, even if it makes us scream aloud to die. We are what we are, that is all. Like the old Celtic legend of the bird with the thorn in its breast, singing its heart out and dying. Because it has to, it's driven to, We can know what we do wrong even before we do it, but self-knowledge can't affect or change the outcome, can it? Everyone's singing his own little song, convinced it's the most wonderful song the world has ever heard. We created our own thorns, and never stop to count the cost. All we can do is suffer the pain, and tell ourselves it was well worth it."

 

am i the throne bird? or everyone is...?

T：the young and the old

 

Early in the morning, just at the moment you sit down in front of your desk, you find a brand new face appears in your department and everyone is nodding to him politely. You may suddenly realize that HE is your new boss!—a promising guy coming back from a training program aboard with a PHD degree of economics of the University of Chicago and a shining experience working for the world largest corporation…what’s more? He is 15 years younger than you! In a society like what we are living in, it is always safe to say that the younger generation has achieved more than what we expected.

Born in such a turbulent world, these babies grew up to be the people who are quite comfortable with the ever-changing viewsights. The extremely fast pace to the old is just the enjoyable speed to these energetic youngsters. They all know that time is so precious that they have to hurry to work, to eat, sometimes even to sleep or chat, so it is the same with opportunity,which is so limited that they have to fight, to work hard, to compete with each other, even to commit frauds in order to get it. The current world to the old has no difference with the previous one, to the young, however, is not only an entrancing gate opening to whomever has the strongest will but also a trap ready for the ones who fail to hold it from the cradle to the grave.

   In addition, the world shapes the characters of this time, which include the most typical personality of the modern generation----“iconoclastism”, a spirit of breaking off the paradigm and building up a new one with high initiation. In the western history, Aristotle, one of the most famous philosophers, once said "I respect my teacher, but I respect the truth even more." Now, it becomes the motto for most of the iconoclasts, with which they get the courage to continue their deeds, the most pioneering and timeworthy job, in many fields of the society. this most famous rebellious "student" might never suppose that his spirit could be so popular in a world where one cannot take care less of the traditions, neither might he imagine the noticeable contributions these mordern discples has brought to the humans’ development as a whole.

In Chinese tradition, older people are always happy to see the progress of their offspring. An old saying that “black colors can be made out of the dark blue, and it is even darker” expresses the good will towards the young generation from the old. The realization for the harmony of the world should absolutely be established on the basis of good relationships between every people, especially between the old and the young. Trust and mutual understanding will bridge the natural gap and better the world as a happy family for everyone who lives in it.

    

two similar topics from a sheerly different kinds of english tests,Toefl and GRE,are listed as follows. 30 minutes was used for the skecth of the first article,while hours for the second part.

as a beginning for my english writing practice,i know it is quite clumsy if not ridiculous.

hope it doesn't hurt your eyes,please stop here and shut off the pages,let me alone to enjoy the process from befuddlement to enlightenment 

 

 T：people attend college or university for many different reasons( for example, new experiences, career preparation， increased knowledge). Why do you think people attend college or university? Use specific reasons and examples to support your answer.

 

As a college student, the fantasy experience of the first few months is still fresh in my memory. The neat campus, the erudite professors and the friendly classmates become the most colorful elements of these golden years in my life.

To begin with, the independent ways of studying, living and working will give every freshman the deepest impression. Parents’ aid, which has been taken for granted for 18 years, can never be turned to any longer, what you have to face is a brand new life with infinite possibilities and risks. An ink spot on your white T-shirt, a math problem that twists your mind, a nearly-breaking friendship are several examples from the numerous setbacks in your daily life, your study and your personal relationships. The college or university provide you a sound environment for youngsters to make mistakes, then learn from them and finally built up the confidence to face the next one, the one with the authentic flavors of the real life.

In addition, as a higher educational institution, college or university provides much more up-to-date knowledge of the advanced science and technology achievements of human kinds than any other organizations. After several terms of learning on the basic courses, such as mathematics, physics and chemistry, students are free to make a further study in their own majors on which they pay the highest attention. The balance between the specialty and generality is precariously taken care by the special staffs in the curriculum designing department, therefore the students can enjoy their most engaging knowledge from the professors, as well as sharing the initiative ideas with their classmates with the same interest.

The last but not the least, college education provide golden opportunities for the students to tentatively contact the society. Great numbers of part-time jobs promote the business awareness of the student job hunters. Meanwhile, many volunteering positions and investigation programs also nurture the capacity of the young to take the responsibility of the society as a whole.

College or university education is not only necessary but also efficient for the most talented and promising to fulfill their craving will for the knowledge, the skills and most importantly, the all-round developed personality. Thus, it is safe to say that a student can always gain the most useful things from his or her college.

 

G: all nations should help support the development of a global university designed to engage students in the process of solving the world’s most persistent social problems.

 

The unemployment rate is ascending with an unprecedented speed around globe; an increasing number of populations still live in destitutions; the public health systems suffer a lot from the pandemic diseases, the environment can not stop itself form slipping into a deteriorating fate; the racial conflicts and religious feuds deprive the innocent habitants of a normal daily life; the drug trafficking activities  are rampant on the borders of some countries and regions…various kinds of social problems are haunted above our heads along with the unbalanced prosperities of the contemporary society.

Till now, an increasing number of people with consciousness have begun to realize how hazardous these problems are, and to think more about what should we react. A suggestion of building up a international university especially for the problem solving tasks was proposed by some social activists. They argued that this global efforts will act a pioneering role in the process of humans’ victory against the befuddled social problems in the near future.

However, before we discuss about how to set up a giant organization like this, the viability of the program should be judged first.

To begin with, the balance between different countries and regions, especially the ones with incompatible beliefs and religions, is hard to maintain. Since the western powers enjoy the pervasive privilege upon the rights of speech around the world, the controversy will always end with the winning of hegemony and the loss of the weak. The students’ ideas might as well be manipulated by the invisible authorities symbolized by their nationalities but not be reasoned with a cosmopolitan point of view. Supposing that it had functioned 100 years ago, it is still impossible for us to rewrite the history of the fascist tyranny or the nationwide languish of the Great Depression.

Granted that a consensus can be reached by some organizing mechanism or some diplomatic skills, whether this agreement can be carried on is still open to question. As an academic institution, although it has the freedom to take along the researches and discussions, its executive ability is considerable frail. Taking some international organizations, such as UN, into account, we will find that they always speak more but act less, warn more but punish less, call for the cooperation more but make a difference less. How could we expect a newly-built university to solve the persistent problems which tangled UN, the largest international group, for years or even decades?

Admittedly, in our fight against poverty, drug abusing, racial discrimination, and etc, the human beings should always forge ahead with their joint efforts, for there is no chance to win, if we tear up the group and conflict with bias and hatred. However, we should adopt some more efficient ways, such as promoting the average level of education around globe, raising fund for the development of poor countries, protecting human rights with respects of disparities among different civilizations…. The intangible university in our minds will be established as long as the good wills could finally be realized and the world harmonized as a whole.

 

美好的食物可以让人学会感念，感念别人，也感念自己。基督徒的饭前祷告太过繁琐了，是宗教徒的情结，而我，只是喜欢在开动前一秒，手拿筷子，闭上眼睛，在饭菜的香味中心生满足，无人察觉的一秒，已经足够了。哥哥告诉我，爱上饭菜的香气是作好女人的前提条件*^^*。anyway，我会一直爱下去的。

石锅拌饭 （비빔밥，Bibimbap)是很有名的可口的韩国人的吃食，在釜山国立大学门口的小街店里坐下，几经解释，Joon Chel才让我明白，这个读音貌似打枪的东西就是“石锅拌饭”了“you put the rice and some vegetables into a hot black stone bawl and then you add some sause on it and then mix them and eat!”他解释的好努力，一边用手当石锅，一会儿又当勺子，然后扮演米饭，同时又是蔬菜：）手舞足蹈的，我不忍打断他，笑笑的看他继续向我们这些外国人解说。“it’s my favorite!”他闭上眼睛，双手合实的说。这让我在见到“hot black stone bawl”之前已经“品尝”到了它的滋味。

这是我所吃过的石锅拌饭中最香醇的，与交大校门口的韩式料理相比，那碗芯上一丁点的橙红色酱料是独一无二的，于是一起快乐的搅拌起来，饭也是橙红色的，辛而浓郁的独属韩国的香气扑面而来，我突然又想起Joon Chel 双手合实的顽皮样子，想起那些被平凡的蔬食，滚热的蒸汽，还有热烈的酱香所笼罩的日子。。。

如果可以尽可能少的索取，是不是就不会有太多求而不得的失落？如果幸福的全部就是那一碗赏心悦目的石锅拌饭，生活会不会比现在来的更知足且美满？

    Sam是在深夜2点半领我走进那家路边排档店的，老板娘勉强招呼了一声，手脚却忙得不得停，不断的有年轻的穿着朋克的男孩女孩来买吃的（后来听说因为那天是当地的摇滚节～），他们一身的善良怪异的打扮，还有眼睛里超脱玩世的神情与那手中仓皇抓着的油炸小食的平民气息那么有趣的冲突着，让我看热闹一样的笑起来。。。

    Sam让我在角落里坐下，对老板娘吆喝了两句我听不懂的，然后拿了冰水过来喝，你一杯，我一杯，非常凉，有点冷了，但又很清冽，没有任何别的味道，在这里，喝冰水好像是每一次用餐前后必须的过程。冰装在钢化塑料或不锈钢的细腰瓶里，来客自己从冰箱里取出，边喝边等着饭食上桌，所以每次吃东西前，胃肠也已经冰镇的差不多了，干干净净的好像一张没有任何味觉记忆的白纸，等待开画。饭后再喝几口，温暖在腹中，唇齿却又清白了。真不知道在营养学上这是否科学，内心却是喜欢的，像极了所有韩国人的那种时时刻刻都很克己的心态。

    在网上搜索了很多，都没能找到与那天晚上放在我面前的那一碗有同样情致的乌冬(우동,Woo-Dong），粗瓷大腕里装着的不仅仅是一根根香糯雪白的面，更有两枚血色的海虾，些许奇形怪状的内壳，还有些叫不上名字的。。。。。。酱色的汤水很清冽，温热的很。Sam把筷子对齐塞到我手上，“Do not just gaze, try it! maybe you will eat it up!”……

    相信我，这个世界上，有些食物的温暖气质并不能用温度本身来衡量，于是它们，那些有着特殊的亲密味道的食物就成为了我的最爱，没有惊艳的味觉，它们只是兀自浓郁的，将生活之味全盘吸纳进去了。我想念头凑头一起吃面的Sam，时常，因为那一夜的生活味道之后，他就如同已经相识年载的哥哥，我叫他一声“oba~~”，他抬头看我，眼镜上模糊上水汽时的样子，一直不能忘记。

乌冬之夜，再冷也不冷了。

 “汤”在这里更多的是作为主菜，远不比在家，只是饭饱后温暖肠胃的酒水一锅。圆葱剪成手指长的一段段，洋葱切丝，加上红澄澄的“秘方”酱料，最后加上精瘦的牛肉久炖。。。上桌了，都还在咕嘟咕嘟的，这就是牛肉汤了。海鲜汤（해물탕，HaeMul-Tang)比这个清淡多了，各种海贝海螺，鱿鱼，虾和蟹被炖到有些乳白了，同样的咕嘟咕嘟。。。。。。前者的辛辣我有些不能适应，后者的鲜美却是此生头一回从韩国肥皂剧情节里一家上下的啧啧称赞的表情中演化为我的舌尖上不舍得咽下的那一口。WQ说，我爱吃海鲜的，我忍着没说“我也爱”，这一辈子已吃下，正吃下，将吃下那么多虾兵蟹将鱼大仙，不知道下辈子会不会投胎成浮游生物被它们报复？怕怕。。。

海鲜汤都很美味，谁叫它是“海鲜汤”呢？！现在想想，嘴里还泛腥味。。。

在Glory Condo的一楼餐厅吃了好些顿韩国的饭菜，总结出以下这条，应该不是妄言――“汤”＋冰水＋白米饭＋小菜若干就是标准的一餐了。刚到的时候心里还有家里盘盘碗碗的中国菜印象，总觉得不敢动筷子，渐渐的就入乡随俗了，发现其实，真正需要的，也就是这些，很足够了。于是也就自然了，吃饭的时候，我是要拉上韩国朋友坐在一桌的，不懂的随时问，这是什么，那个怎么用，大家都是Foreigners，笑笑闹闹的也不会太不礼貌。

辣白菜（김치，Kim-Chi)是不能错过的，我是说“不能够”――尽管我很害怕它，但它却是每餐必备，从不缺席，Joon Chel总是很热情的邀请我再尝试一下，无奈的，我也只能往下咽，他却故意吃得津津有味，一边还评论，这比其他妈妈自家做的还是差远了。我笑，猛喝几口冰水才平息了胸中的火苗，抬头看看，还好，大家都专注于自己的食物上呢。。。继续喝水。。。

四人一桌的招待安排，每桌都有招待贵客时才用到的牛肉汤，六只白瓷小盘里只在中心的一小块区域里摆着一小撮干鱼，或是海带丝，紫菜条什么的，可爱是可爱的，只是让人不忍食之。。。。。。后来我问Joon Chel韩国人对于浪费的看法，他显然是第一时间明白了我的意思，直入主题的说起了内战时韩国人的艰辛生活，我不知道怎么跟他解释中国人之浪费其实并不浪费，只好一个劲的点头。

 

 

以前从不欣赏寿司（김밥，Kim-Bap)这个东西，对于哥哥将芥末调和了酱油，用生鱼盖的冷饭团蘸了，狼吞虎咽赞不绝口的样子将信将疑，而当这一天的午饭――那样的一盒寿司饭盒摆在我面前时，我还是不能不动容的。新鲜橙黄的鱼子酱均匀的铺在齐整的一排海鲜寿司上，鲜虾被去了甲，从腹中剖开，拍平，覆在左上角的那一格上，右上的紫菜卷极小巧，芯子里包裹的那一点腌制过的蔬菜却很鲜美，没有什么刺激的气味：）。。。。。。

我们都坐在地板上吃，静悄悄的，没有声音。。。

不知道还有没有机会与这样美味的寿司相遇，亦有一点犹豫，要不要告诉哥哥，那些上海街头日式店里的花花绿绿的小饭团，其实并不能算是真正的美味。

 

 

 

 

 

    幸福有很多种，至高境界是“在每时每刻都能与自己喜欢的人一起做自己想做的事情”，这种为所欲为的状态一直是小时候的我心中恋恋不舍的情结。可是，什么是“每时每刻”？什么人才是自己真正喜欢的？我又究竟想做什么事情呢？这些问题早在我开始向着这极乐奔跑之前就牢牢的纠缠住了我的手脚，于是追求幸福的小女孩会落入困惑——难道这就是幸福之路的样子么？

    今年5月，料峭春寒一直不肯走离上海，瑟瑟缩缩地，给蛋糕插上21根蜡烛，我想，我终于还是过了作“女孩”的年龄了。。。曾经写下过的那篇“狠狠长大”已经不知随风飘到哪里去了，抬眼却看见，关于幸福的种种设计都已经不复为原来的模样：烈烈的大风化成和煦的流水的模样；战斗和抗争都结束了，生命的喘息也结束了，成为句号一般丰腴美满的一个圆；于是幸福的至高境界从触不倒的奢求化为一些零落了的细节。与其为树，固执坚守，不如为叶，春华秋实，恬然自我。

   

    每一次远行，我总在出发前告诉自己：“不许偷懒阿，一定要为这段旅程留下点什么才是。”然后，就可以带着我的所有知觉上路，把扑面而来的点滴气息都纳下。有时候觉得自己成了某种新鲜生成的植物，或者是海葵一样柔软的东西，不设防备地在空气中漂着漂着。。。。。

     我所定义的旅行，无论是去哪里，都是某种程度上的醉生梦死的过程。可以完全的放下人的过去和未来，仅仅为现在而走过而笑而哭；往往不愿意注意卫生和时钟的安排，忍不住尝试各种的吃食，一度胆子大到不顾有毒没毒；也没有白天和黑夜的分别，因为心里知道，人与人相处的时间那么有限，而再见的机缘又得在佛前跪求500年。。。。。。

     从不在“兴趣爱好”的栏目中填写“旅行”，因为综上种种，旅行并不是兴趣爱好，甚至并不随人心性，她搅扰着我平静的日子，先是被命运派去某时某地，之后又被生生的扯回来。。。。。。

     十日间，我往往不能分清现实与梦境的边界，好像仍然是那株嫩绿的植物或是悠游的海葵，只是会觉得身体的疼痛，且不知痛的来处。这，就是“醉生梦死”。

     十日的纪念文，算是哀悼梦醒，也是庆祝重生，并以此献给斯时斯地的天空和海洋，献给Sam，WQ，Joon Chel等等等等。。。。。。